๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ถ๐ญ ๐ข๐ด ๐ฃ๐ช๐จ ๐ข๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฎ๐ช๐ญ๐ฆ.
Last year I lost touch of my inner light and sat in the dark depths of my own existential loneliness. I knew by turning away from my old life it would lead to major changes. Ignorantly, I thought the transformation would be quick, relatively painless, & incredibly empowering.
It was not.
When I let go of my prior unfulfilling life plan, I thought the universe would reward me with something better. I thought it would lead me down a soulfully aligned life path, a grounding relationship, and a peaceful state of mind.
Instead, I was signed myself up for a soul challenge.
Spirit showered me with illusory foods, and I ate them without question, even though I had a lot of clearing work left to do within myself. I was not ready for these treats and ironically, if I had been doing the work, I would have recognized these things for what they were โ fake candy, not soul food.
Eventually, these illusions rotted away, and I was left alone with the dis๐ฆ๐ข๐ด๐ฆ of my soul. It took my spirit getting sick for me to finally fall to my knees and cry out to the transcendental Other. I prayed every day for recovery and strength. I asked for understanding. I asked for kindness, and as my relationship to the Divine began to shape, my prayers were answered in both subtle & abundant ways. Everywhere I went I found kindness in strangers, I was gifted a large community that gave me stability, and I was invited to Peru by a beautiful soul family to work with medicine healers.
Alongside my soul sisters & brothers, Iโve been breaking through generational traumas, healing my womb space, balancing my masculine & feminine energies, and most importantly โ building onto my relationship with the grand, beautiful, radiantly divine Pachamama // the Father of creation // the Great Mystery.
The light within me has returned โ may I cherish it, hold it safe, and shower in its warmth for the remainder of my days.
I plan to use of this platform to share my words, in hopes that it activates the light in you.
Josie Blue Rohde โ find me on instragram